Out Of Quarantine

Well.. Finally, leaving the dark alleys. Thank you to all who never visited. Myriad masterpieces to pop out soon  @ My Marred Mutiny
Until next time then....

The Wall [Co-writer: Vidhi]

[ Nirvana - You Know You're Right ]

Take it all
And let me fall
I'm leaning on a moldy wall
Talking to an empty face
Taking over all my craze

Don't tell me - It's my fault
Don't tell me
I won't hear at all
Sew up the lips that bruise
Don't tell me - I'm overused

----

A storm's coming
Trembled whispers say
Mortals running
While I'm at bay
Elseworlds churning
While I lay
And wonder what's the fucking day

Leaning on a moldy wall
Fixated on an empty face
Brushing the dirt for embrace
Standing til my knees don't fall

----

They're supposed to bring you down
I won't let them come around
Stubborn with their godly fear
They feel trouble seeing me near

----

Don't tell me
What I can see
Don't tell me - It's my fault
Sew up the lips that bruise
Sew me up
I'm so confused

Leaning on a moldy wall
Fixated on an empty face
Talking to a know it all
Getting over all my craze

Drawing circles with my thumb
Can't feel my hands go numb
Hoping a fire comes alive
And washes out the wrecked lives

----

A hollow march without their meds
Onward with their hammers and heads

Blow your torches
Or blow yourselves
You're soon gonna be in hell

For nothing can allay inside
The demon that's sick of my hide
Can't zip it up
I can't fight

Don't take me to the otherside
Let this crap end tonight

Smeared

[ Alberta Bound - Bryan Adams ]
[ The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo ]

You are the one who cares...
That's probably why you ever fear...
You tried to take the stairs...
But they led you back over here...

Running away...
Is that what you really ever want?
Crystal clear, smudge-free days...
Just a well-deserving taunt...

Thought you'd got it wrong..
To us,
It seemed quite sincere...

Thought you were never strong...
Impressive...
You've held back every tear...

Anyway...

Nobody leaves this wreck unpaid...
Everyone who's been pushed out here,
Is shoved right in to get laid...

And very soon dear...

You'll be smeared...
Smeared with the same repulsive fate....

-----

Ignore the whispered lies...
Ignore the bruises on your hide...

Look at the brighter side...

You didn't have to choose any side...

Get back in your element...
This for sure isn't your last night...

Please do us a favor...
Don't be a good bend...

We really love it when you fight....

-----

There are no exceptions...
Nobody leaves this crack unpaid...
It wasn't our intention...
But everyone over here gets laid...

Rules are rules...

So be happily smeared...
Smeared with the same repulsive fate.....

Once I Die

Honestly,
Tried so really hard to forget me..
The hostile conscience harrows me,
Having not come to grips with humanity...

Relentlessly,
I converse with the morbid me..
Says I'm the one to have ruined me..
Nothing more to this reality...

Then...
Heard a few words from the overcast sky,
Assuring me that I would fly..
Once I die..
Once I die...

----

Thought I'd give it a try..
But woke up to a few curious whys..
Never seen someone turn off their lights??

----

Won't hear the inarticulate screams..
Certain this'll all be a dream..
I'll be over with the stifled cries..
Once I die..
Once I die...

----

Recklessly,
Walked in and out of the Love I see..
Now posted over every wretched memory,
Is a whimper for some stability..

Like those words from the overcast sky..
Feel certain that I would fly..
Once I die..
Once I die...

----

So I give it one more shot..
The Jury says I should not..
But every man guards his own thought...

----

Won't no more hear my inarticulate screams..
This'll all be just a dream..
And I'll be redeemed from all my lies..
Once I die..
Once I die...

Peruse [2012-08-30, 2012-08-31, 2012-09-02, 2012-09-08, 2012-09-09]

[No more musings. had to get this one out of the closet. feeling like Dexter shutting down his Computer. last goodbye.]

[Guaranteed - Eddie Vedder]

Racing to your place...

Feel an overwhelming embrace...

I've tied up my hair,

Ignoring every stare...

The rain beats my face...

You're all over me....

Remembering your winter breath...

It was as warm as Volcanoes...

Timid hope floats on a storm,

I'd erupt for all I know....

I make you my day,

And scribble all my way...

You're my muse....

---

Heard that you've turned sane...

Your drawl's not the same...

My experiments have failed,

I need a hammer to be nailed...

You forget all the stuff,

We've been at long enough...

This isn't what I want...

This wasn't why I was conned...

You're all over me...

Happiness portrays,

A caricature of your say...

I make you my day,

And scribble all my way...

Are you my muse...?

---

One meet is all I need...

Even hearing you would do...

Your name pops on screen,

I'm writing what I never knew...

Glacial magic in my chest...

My heart skis a bit...

Drumming heard through my vest...

The dark corners are lit....

You're all over me...

I just make you my day,

And scribble all my way...

You're my muse.....

Interminable [07-09-2012, 09-09-2012]

[Hope this is my last post. goodbye.]

Undid her fluffed up faith...

Stepped warily into a bubbly crate...

Red comets on her skinny pale,

Sobbing helps flush the bare trail...

Whatever now that's been said,

The rare stoic visits to her head...

Words cannot really make us feel,

What it's like to be,

Running on a futile wheel...

Rummaged about for the forbidden fruit,

When gravity draped her wet and nude...

Bereft of any tangible fins,

Hung on to the worth of no loss or win...

But wherever she may have been led,

Nothing's any better when you're dead...

This world can just pretend to feel,

What it's like to be,

Running on a futile wheel....

Hypocrites

[ I have no clue what this is.]

We weren't loud;

They were quiet.

We weren't harsh;

They were mild.

We weren't what we were inside;

We were something we'd always hide.

We weren't the ones to land at night;

We weren't the time that had arrived.

We were just humans dowsed in light;

We weren't the ones who then survived.

Vampyre Douche [2012-5-29, 2012-5-30, 2012-6-18, 2012-6-20, 2012-7-11, 2012-7-29, 2012-8-26]

[ I'm growing pathetic by the hour]

Vampyre Douche had a love-hate school,

Those were wretched times,

Fangs weren't cool.

Bram Stroker hadn't dawned yet,

A research says,

He was called Batman's pet.

Got sucker punched,

Got a hunch.

Resembled the crooked man,

Picking at lunch.

Bullied and butchered at every class,

Managed to be in a relationship

That didn't last.

Heart-broken, her blood unsucked;

He left her a note,

But it didn't work.

Had a friend with a bird-like name,

The only one who knew

About his passion for blood and games.

Adamant to look unlike the rest,

He wore clothes from the graveyard's best.

Now all the hot chicks,

Turn their heads.

Trapped on sight,

The rest is broken beds.

Then came the much awaited Valentine's night,

He hooked up with Angela:

The one who loved to diet.

Well, his Valentine wasn't bloody at all

Got too pissed and bloodied the ball.

Next you know,

He's hanging behind bars.

Whoever said,

Chicks dig scars!

And the research points out,

He's still called Batman's pet.

Perchance, its his only regret.

Everyday Every Sec

[ The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You ]

If I was somewhere here

But you were miles away

No line that'd connect to you

No route to lead your way

I would still just be a missed call away

Or maybe that would'nt be needed

You don't have to butter the light to shine

I'll be brightening you

Before you know it

Everyday every sec

I'll be in your fall

Half my body screaming with you

The other waiting below to hold

Everyday every sec

I'll be in your rise

Mocking high their jealous cries

We're not the perfect size

----

Now as we belt out our sighed goodbyes

Your twisted wave acts as I leave

I wonder whatever was that

Confused

I don't believe

----

While you're gone

I'd still talk about

The teeth in your mouth

How you smell of wheat

Or whatever that is

That faint smile when you're down

While I'm away

I don't have to assure

You'd still be always needed

I wouldn't have to butter the light to shine

You'll be brightening me

Before I know it

Everyday every sec

I'll be in your fall

Half my body screaming with you

The other waiting below to hold

Everyday every sec

I'll be in your rise

Mocking high their jealous cries

We're not the perfect size

----

Damn You

[ Thank you Mayuresh Dukhande for typing without punctuations]

I am tired
Proving myself to you
So today
I will do what I want to

You could fuck off
Take everyone else with you
I will not stick now
To what you think I should do

I still need a bit of change
I am not the one who needs cocaine
Do not have any angel wings
Have earned my own right to sing

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
Do not give a damn today
Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah
I will not care what you say

Leave as soon you enter
You are nothing but a penile cancer
Damn you today
Damn you today

Busy Gal [2012-08-07, 2012-08-08, 2012-08-09, 2012-08-13, 2012-08-20, 2012-08-24]

Where's the coffee mug?

It's her only friend...

Hot like her,

The replenishment never ends...

Unimportant ones,

She'll call you later...

The real lucky cunts,

Get to her better....

She got no time...

No time for rhymes...

She got no time...

Glad her world ain't mine...

Busy gal...

Got some news that's due...

The next door guy seems to've fallen for you...

Busy gal...

Do you have the time?

Should I fix the meeting?

Or would you mind?

---

She's faster than a plane...

She's been on every train...

Crossed every damn lane...

She's everywhere in his brain...

Busy, busy, busy...

Crazy, crazy, crazy crushing...

---

Her eyes on the computer...

His on their dreamy future...

Her every look even when she's tense,

Drive him away and out of sense..

Busy gal,

There's a news in the queue...

The next door guy seems to've fallen for you...

Busy gal.

Going in for the catch?

Or should I fix a meeting?

An invite for the snatch....

---

Hasn't someone ever been interested?

How cruel to leave her unattended...

Doesn't she have a heart?

He'd give her his for a start...

Busy gal,

There's a news in the queue...

The next door guy seems to've fallen for you...

Busy gal,

Do you have the time?

The meeting's been fixed...

Hope you wouldn't mind...

(He's outside...Yeah...)

Meltdown [2012-08-16, 2012-08-23]

[ Spin - Lifehouse ]

This'll just go on...
Lemme put a stop...
I know I cannot...
I cannot not talk....

This isn't easy...
What's been happenin'...
Am I really wrong?
I don't feel so wrong....

It's not so good after all....

I'd freeze everythin' for you,
But I can't stop my meltdown....
You heat me up,
All the moments you're around....
*
Said I wouldn't break,
The ice you are on....
Feel I'm out of breath above....
I'll have to go down....

Cannot seem to move...
You're standin' so near....
I seem to sense a demon,
That's raisin' your fear.....

I'd freeze everythin' for you,
But I can't stop my meltdown....
You heat me up,
All the moments you're around....

And I wanna leave it all....
But I'm back on the next call....
You heat me up,
All the moment's you're around......

Tumblin' Down [Co-writer: Vidhi]

[ Spin - Lifehouse ]

Broken pieces blow...
Pulverized by the curse....
Nothin' doin' now...
I'll be here somehow...
Things are gettin' worse....

Slapstick comedy...
I'm not up for it...
We don't have to knit...
What's your opinion?
It's gettin' worse.....

We'll keep tumblin' down...
The end isn't around...
Can't fall today,
We won't hit the ground....
*
Come a bit closer now...
The climate's freezin' up...
We got not much to say...
We got not many days...
Things are gettin' worse....

The meadow is worth lyin' in....
Flourishin' sparkled grin....
Skies of homegoin' tricks....
It's not gettin' worse....

We fear tumblin' down...
The end isn't around...
Can't fall today,
We won't hit the ground....

We fear tumblin' down...
The end might come around...
Can't fall today...
Don't wanna hit the ground....
*
Think of somethin' new...
Gone are the creative bouts...
Enclosed in sheets of clouds...
We can't see them now...
Things are gettin' worse...

Situation squeezes us in...
Darkened atmosphere...
Lightenin' leads to tears...
It's gettin' worse....

We'll keep tumblin' down....
The end isn't around...
Don't fall today,
We won't hit the ground....

We fear tumblin' down...
The end might come around...
We won't fall today,
Don't wanna hit the ground....

Let's not fall today,
( I'll be here somehow)
Don't wanna hit the ground.......

Zilch In The Left [2012-08-19, 2012-08-20]

[Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt]

Shouldn't be writin' to you....
But,
I just can't help it....
I am crazy...
I am stupid...,
Yes, I surely know it...

I've just been wonderin' al through,
What's it like....
To be someone I know....
Rushin' out to every exit...,
Turnin' the knob on every door....

Can't we just be that somethin'...
Beneath every sky....?
The ones that move together in marshes....
For there's somethin' that never dies....
*
I've brought this up before now baby,
I've tried so hard to lie....
I've been that persistent prick,
That still somehow survives....

I can't let go,
Just cuz I'm stupid...
But I am crazy too...
Have not been too kind lately,
I've not been what you knew....
*
Its been a while,
Since I've asked you this...
Just lemme know Wassup with you...?
Know there's a lot I've missed....

How are things on your side?
Is your smile still that wide?
I wanna know,
How you've been?
Remember al the things we've seen?
*
A maze's been raised,
Inside my heart...
Can't find my way,
To the outer part....

Stuck in beats...
They make me bleed...
The aches are left on repeat....
This isn't what I need....

Can't I just be that somethin',
Beneath your every sky....?
Move together in marshes....
Somethin' that never dies....

The clouds are dead...
After what's been said....
And I fall in further...
I fall away in you.....

(Minus) You [Co-writer: Vidhi] [2012-08-14, 2012-08-20]

[ LOL. Unexpected fun.]

You said my hormones were ragin'....
You said I wasn't that engagin'....
Nevertheless, You didn't stop...
I was the thief,
And you were the cop....

All the things that then befell me,
After I felt that somethin' for thee....
All the papers flung up high in the air....
I've lost count of how much I care.....

Add it up,
Hand me down...
The complete list...
All the lost and found....

Add it up...
And let me go...
Time seems few,
(Minus) You.....
*
Your image is still in the drive....
Can't get my fingers on to type....
Oh your skin,
Help me sin....
Help me win,
Over your skin....

Add it up,
Hand me down...
The complete list...
Square or round...

Add it up...
Let me know...
And let me go....
Cuz time seems few,
(Minus) You.....
*
You arched your back...
Called me a lie...
I stayed intact,
I'm a tough guy....

Every cold I've seized from you....
Sneezed out of control...
That's what you'll do....

Add it up,
Hand me down...
The complete list...
Over and around....

Add it up,
And let me go....
Times seems few
(Minus) You....

Add it up,
Let me know....
Yeah, I seem new...
(Minus) You.....

I don't want to....
(Minus) You.....

I just can't do....
(Minus) You....!

Mama'll Forgive [2012-08-16, 2012-08-17]

[ Nothin's makin' sense. Felt so bored to complete this.]

[ Yellow Ledbetter - Pearl Jam]

[ "I got in trouble with the police, and that was a rude awakening. That was it. I'd seen the bottom of the pit, and it was time to scrape myself out of it." - Bryan Adams]

Mama told me,
Soon figure out my life...
Didn't go down very well...
Thought she'd hurled a knife...

Everyday I did,
What I shouldn't have...
A willin' walk to the wrong trap...
Thought I'd do,
What I couldn't have....

Hear Mama cry now...,
Seems so quiet in pain....
Officer, I'll somehow,
Scrape out the stain....

Hear Mama really wish...,
I was different....
Dunno bout that name...
But I surely now,
Won't be the same....
*
It was wonderful...
Atleast that's what it felt...
I was a rebel,
Out to prove I can't fail...

Mama I know,
You'll forgive me today....
After I go,
And really do what I really say....

Mama I know,
You'll definitely be with me....
Though I mustn't have been with you...,
When you've needed me....
*
Thank you for comin'...
To set me free...
Now here I am, up close,
Don't anymore squint to see....

Ran on the rusty track...
Ran against the wind amok....
Wheels then split apart,
When trouble walked....

Dry your cheeks now...
Will surely rain good...
I realise its time that,
I really do what I really should....

And Mama I know...,
You'll forgive me today....
As soon as I go,
Even if I ain't right again...,
On my way......

Vanished

[ Yellow Ledbetter - Pearl Jam
All The Way/4U - Poets Of The Fall]
[Old Love - Jeffrey Archer]

Oh please see me...
See me tear....
I've come back...
To tell I really care....

Can't you see me?
See I'm there...
Should've informed you,
I'll be comin here...

Know it's late,
But I did ring the bell...
Gave you a ring before....,
But I just couldn't tell....

You look wrinkled...
You look at peace...
Sorry for the trouble,
That stayed so at ease....

There's smog in the air....
There's a black...,
That feels so rare...
We al will see it...
We al will ride that mare...
*
Left the warmth...
Never turned around...
Showed my back,
To a lover's muffled sound...

And then your heart,
Was closed too tight...
To vent out the sorrow,
That went outta sight....

Now there's smog in this place....
The reason's a knock,
That we'll al face....

There's a black...,
That feels so rare...
We'll al someday,
Ride that enchanted mare....
*
I should've known,
the mare would reach...,
Before I could...
Before I would...,
Prepare for my guilt speech....

The smog's still there....
A sleepy tune's heard....
Juttin' out of my skin,
Are Braille-like words....

There's a black,
That feels so rare...
We all will someday,
Ride that mare...
*
There's another hollow....
I'm happy very much....
I am ready once more...,
To feel your touch.....

I'll be comin'....
Comin' to where you'll be....
Move wherever you wish to....
Can't let you triumph...
Triumph over me......

Okay

I don't wanna talk somehow...
Need someone to hear me out...
I might just lose it now...
But I can't take it down...

My thoughts are mine,
And only mine...
I'll take the tickets,
I'll pay the fine...
So don't you worry...
Don't you mind...

Okay...
Stay away...
I'm not gettin' your point today....

Okay...
Move this way...
Til I get to you, you'll be okay....
*
I will first tell then show...
I always want some more...
How could they never know?
I was the one who tore....

Okay...
Stay away...
Let yourself take off today....

Okay...
Move this way...
Til I get to you, you'll be okay....
*
So many times I've crossed myself...
So many times I've burnt in hell...
So many times I thought I'd dwell,
Upon the past that crops so swell....
*
I've been to myself before...
In the winters, the summer soar...
Closed shut the lousy door...
But al I want to be some more...

Okay...
Stay away...
Look at the skies today....

Okay...
Move this way...
I will get to you when you're okay....

The Usual [2012-07-27, 2012-07-28, 2012-08-03]

[ Got the "Deranged Notes" feelin' while writin' this... Almost scattered, until someone really finds a tidy way in....]

The funny feelin' I'd get in my teeth...
Now I'm gettin' it in my eyes...
Didn't I ever mention what disease?
It must've just slipped off my mind...
*
We'll talk about your problems now...
Wait til I keep me on hold...
Then you can throw whatever you want...
But you can't always do whatever's been told....

So didn't I tell you what disease ?
Didn't I ever iron the crease ??
*
Let me burn down the neighbor's house...
I heard they called you a creep...
Had they said it on my face,
I would've happily smiled n agreed....

Take a whiff of the real stuff...
There are asses who would die to see...

Can't remember what disease....,
It better be your time to flee....!!!
*
Tried it out, much to popular belief...,
It doesn't turn you blind nor weak...
So I sunk in it everyday....
Now I resemble an enlightened freak...
*
Back to your problem,
I never heard you speak...
Neither did I see you move your lips...

Back to your holy rant...
Is it just my imagination?
Or are your eyeballs doin' backward flips....??
*
Think about winter,
And it's freezin' cold....
Its freezin' like hell's been sold....

Hold on tight to the hot cocoa mugs....

Could you just tell me what disease ??
Before you're in my collar and cuffs.....
*
Maybe it's useless,
Tryin' to figure out the past...
Its maybe worth,
Everythin' that won't ever last...

So maybe we can actually grow up now....
Make it without the usual crap somehow......

And didn't I ever mention what disease??
Well for once, I'll just rest in peace....

The Girl With The Most Amazin' Teeth [2012-07-15, 2012-07-16, 2012-07-21, 2012-07-25, 2012-07-26, 2012-07-29, 2012-07-30]

A smokin' daze this mornin'...
Raised her arms,
and was yawnin'...

That's when I saw what I shouldn't...
Take my eyes off her?
I just couldn't...

She's the same gal...
My warm blooded sheath...
She's the one...
The one with the most amazin' teeth...

Her lips were such...
Oh, still they are...
Her lips are such,
That I'd kill to meet...

The girl with the most amazin' teeth....
*
My heart plunges into the atlantic...
I watch her smile,
She has me frantic...

Back in the days when we were one...
We'd kiss like crazy,
Whenever we felt the sun...

What you make of it,
I don't care...
She's up front...
She's everywhere....

She's the same gal...
My reserved seat...
She's the one...
The one with the most amazin' teeth...

Her lips were such...
Oh, still they are...
Her lips are such,
That I'd kill to meet....

The girl with the most amazin' teeth....
*
She must've burnt her old self...
Read al the books on her maple wood shelf...
Tried al the don'ts and al the do's...
She's treated boys like worthless goo...

Yes. I love you too.....

She's the same gal...
My deathly feat...
She's the one...
The one with the most amazin' teeth...

Her lips were such...
Oh, still they are...
Her lips are such,
That I'd kill to go meet....

The girl with the most amazin' teeth....
*
How can it be?
How dare she?
How can she be livin' my dream?

Why can't it be?
Why can't she?
Why can't she be on the home team?
*
She must be an agile globetrotter...
She's been a rebellious daughter...
She must be an awesome trendsetter...
Her bunny teeth just makes it better...

She's the same gal...
My suicidal wreath...
She's the one...
The one with the most amazin' teeth...

Her lips were such...
Oh, still they are...
Her lips are such,
That I'd kill to meet...

The girl with the most amazin' teeth....

Different Hell [2012-07-17, 2012-07-18]

[Oh Love - Green Day]

No searchlight ??
Well, isn't that GREAT?!
Thanks for carryin' it, Underweight !!

Things are hard ??
Well, so am I !!
But al I want is to get away from the sighs !!

Now what??
You're the one to blame...
Either talk or suck on the thick flame !!!

Gotta quit drownin' in the same well...
I fuckin' need another different hell !!

Gonna blast the place I've so long dwelled...
Blast off right into another different hell...
*
Givin' up ??
Well, that's SO not you!!
Weren't you the one who stuck like glue!?

Mind is fucked ??
Well, I feel it too...
As the sewin' up job lands with you....

Gotta quit drownin' in the same well...
Yeah, I fuckin' need a different hell !!

Gonna go whine with a death knell...
I fuckin' want another different hell !!

Gonna blast the place I've so long dwelled...
Blast off right into another different hell...
*
Isn't enough !!
It's not enough !!
Rummage through your stuff...
You got some more puff ??
It's never enough !!
It's not enough !!
*
Dark skies ??
Well, I see it too...
Not gonna stop us from doin' what we do !!

Avalanche ??
Well, that's like it !
Remember, you're a wick that's just been lit !!

Gotta quit drownin' in the same well...
I fuckin' need another different hell !!

Gonna go whine with a death knell...
I fuckin' want another different hell !!

Gonna blast the place I've so long dwelled...
Blast off right into another different hell......

See ya'll never, Suckers !!!

Tell Me Your Dreams

[vague remembrance of Sidney Sheldon's "Tell Me Your Dreams"]

[ Stephen King's "Sneakers" for the 'telling is shit' line...]

They are al alike...
A little lonely,
And they're ready to strike...

You've seen their bad side....
Now convinced,
they always need a ride....

Took you from behind...
Took away the choice you had...
So loosely you stand...

Now you're mad...
You're mad...
Damn mad....

Tell me your dreams...
Why they always make you scream?
Maybe I have a cure...
But can you trust my kind once more?
*
This one's different...
You said to yourselves....
But then again,
You're in the same old hell....

Back off....
No one ever hears you out...
The bullets are gone,
Once they pull it out....

Oh now you're mad...
You're mad...
Damn mad...

Tell me your dreams...
Why they always make you scream?
Maybe I have a cure...
But can you trust my kind once more?

You're more than you seem....
You're split, when they scream...
Tell me your dreams....
*
Come on in...
I kinda know your stance...
You might wanna fall out
Of this Mad Hatter dance...

Restrain the alternatives...
Be the boss....
Keep holdin' weak...
And you're in for a toss...

Then you'll get mad....
You'll get mad...
Damn mad...

So tell me your dreams...
Why they always make you scream?
Maybe I have a cure...
But can you trust my kind once more?

You're more than you seem....
You're split, when they scream...
Tell me your dreams....

I know tellin' is shit...
But you'll have to get over it....

Glueless

[Spider-Man 2]
[Rescued - Jack's Mannequin]
[First Date - Blink-182]

I saw you the other day...
I know you've lost your ray...
As you climbed the wall,
And fell in the pit...

Broke your back,
Now it hurts like shit...

You even tested your fall...
Somethin' you always missed...
But not this time,
Nothin' came out your wrist...

You're almost busted...
But it's okay to be so...
You've been trusted...
So do what you know...

If I was in your place,
Technically I'd be in the same disgrace....

Can't let go what you've embraced...
Great responsibilities must be faced...
Though tonight,
You're glueless.....
*
Turn your back,
But I know you are thinkin'...
You gotta sack,
The dreaded sinkin'...

They need you now...
No matter if they curse you...
When the time is up,
All they need is a rescue...

So you gotta be...
Cuz you have to be....

If I was in your place,
Technically I'd be in the same disgrace....

Can't let go what you've embraced...
Great responsibilities must be faced...

Though tonight...,
You're glueless.....
*
Kicked to the very beginnin'...
Your normal life smiles at us....
But they're still strugglin'....
So please come and save us....

Children who wanna be you...
A hero for more than a few...

Can't kill yourself now...
You are amazin'...
Don't knock it up...
Don't give up....

And if I was in your place,
Technically I'd be in the same happy phase....

But can't let go what you've embraced...
Great responsibilities must be faced...

Doesn't matter if tonight....,
You're glueless.....

Watch Over You [2012-07-06, 2012-07-07, 2012-07-12]

[Pipe Dreams - Travis]

The song is over now...
Pushin' an empty swing of arguments...
Swallow the disbelief,
For you ring hollow....

And in the roar of the crowd,
What was said...
What was meant...
What was never heard....

Could it ever be cured?

Then we wait for one of us,
to begin first...
And we end up nowhere,
Divided in scenarios worst....

No evidence needed...
You understand what you see...
So rest your head...
Let there be peace for what won't be...

And the light shud go out,
To be again...
Well the light that's gone out,
Might now rent your brain...

So the night will be stayin' here for you...
Tryin' hard,
Tryin' it's best to be what you feel is true...
I'll be up, just to wait in a queue...
To board a star,
To watch over you...
*
Impulses inflicted by the red...
Forget the black...
Forget the cold...

But would you forget the dead?

Your faith feels torn complete....
Your reason is deeply buried...

A new reason to have faith in...
Would it really help?
For a new tomorrow will now begin...

While the night will be stayin' here for you...
Tryin' hard,
Tryin' it's best to be what you feel is true...
I'll be up, just to wait in a queue...
To board a star,
To watch over you.....

Breathe Easy [2012-06-22, 2012-07-07, 2012-07-08, 2012-07-09, 2012-07-11]

[Thank you to the ever inspirin' All In All - Lifehouse]

Headed to slippery platform no. 16...
The clock struck
out of luck,
So I'm back to where I've been....
Oh, not again...

I hear a siren song...
And its catchy as hell...
Wonder who inspires them,
Tempted to do what they tell...
Oh, not again...

[Breathe easy...
Sail through the foggy headaches,
Flick the cigarette...
And believe in what you make....]
*
Spread out your hands,
Give out some faith...
Before you learn to stand,
You gotta break....

Shed your regrets,
Burn your doubts...
No matter how late,
The time is always now....
Yeah Oh, Wow.

[Breathe easy...
Sail through the foggy headaches,
Flick the cigarette...
And believe in what you make...

Nothin' but bad dreams tonight...
Won't miss em lot,
When you race the light....]
*
Say that you have failed...
But you haven't tried much...
The moment you do,
You'll never need the crutch...

Words may seem forced tonight...
But they'll make sense alright...
So buck up and
Face your fears
on the reality flight...

[Breathe easy...
Sail through the foggy headaches,
Flick the cigarette...
And believe in what you make...

Nothin' but bad dreams tonight...
Won't miss em lot,
When you race the light....]

Deranged Notes [Unwanted Territory] (2012-06-22, 2012-06-24, 2012-06-25, 2012-06-26, 2012-07-02, 2012-07-03, 2012-07-04)

Doled out a few oxygen masks...
Just like nothin's meant forever,
Even the oxygen won't last....

Scenes were a blur,
Each step, my legs buckled...
I couldn't see my nerves,
Turnin' red, my reflection chuckled...

The clothes fell out the wardrobe...
The furniture burned to dust....
My works carpeted the floor....
And I lay cursin' my trust....

No heir to the throne...
No sword in the stone...
Reverberations in my bones...
I'm scared. I'm alone.

Once, a mistake...
Twice, a habit...
Everyday, a disaster...
Scrape out of the pit...

Dark chocolate pupils...
Forbidden and temptin'...
Leave me transfixed...
Leave me fumin'...

Dreamy eyes,
Drunk in you're dreams...
Caught your disguise...
But I'll stay in your team...

The curtains had been dropped...
Their flak filled my draught...
They never made sense anyway...
Weren't worth a hear I thought...

A clout to the chin...
A kick in the shin...
Wanting to stand still...
Fore a train that would help 'em kill...

There's that obvious regret,
never had the pleasure to meet....
There's that broken faith,
never had the etiquettes to greet....

And the words kept flowin' into the bowl...
The bland tasted better...
Seasoned with blues,
I'm on a roll...

Those words were silent when I dared a talk...
Those words were lost in my everyday walk...
And those words can be whatever,
But never an awaited knock...

And as...,
Al above won't quit fallin' down...
Al 'round won't quit the piercin' sound...
Al below quit bein' my ground...
I'll just be a rubble,
In this seismic town.....

Photo Frame [Unwanted Territory] (2012-06-21, 2012-06-22, 2012-06-25, 2012-06-26)

A cup of coffee to sedate the stress....
Just gotta leave soon,
Before the ruins of blues....
Have no explanation for the red stained mess....

I'm singin' with the wind,
You stare on....
You stare on....

You're stuck in a photo frame...
Quite aware who's to blame...
As all the heated memories fall in cold flame...
Good I shot you when you weren't the same....
*
Move my fingers over your face...
Find you so real...
Feel I'm in your place...

No, you wouldn't haunt me anymore...
Not atleast after the burning phase...

For now you're stuck in a photo frame....
Won't fly when you've been stalled....

The sun would've been a brighter ball....
Had you cared to take my call....

The heated memories fall in cold flame...
Good I shot you when you weren't the same....
*
Nothin' is ever lost...
They're just roofed somewhere away from your sight....
Someday I'll see you soon....
Someday I'll see me die....
*
The bed seems bigger.....
And I couldn't quite figure,
The reason why it seemed so....

But then I remember,
You're now not a member....

You look different near the lamp....
You stare on....
You stare on....

You're stuck in a photo frame...
Take you out and tear you up....
Can't do that to stick myself....
I'm not that selfish....
I don't need your help....

As all the heated memories fall in cold flame...
Good I shot you when you weren't the same....

Green [Unwanted Territory] (2012-06-23, 2012-06-24, 2012-06-25, 2012-06-26)

They slammed the door on me....
Said I wasn't enough qualified....
But they don't even know me....
Then how the fuck can they decide !!!

Say I can prove my skills...
I'll surely won't have you al in splits...
Man enough to fill the bill....
But not ready to be a drippin' clit....

I am green they say !!
Maybe I'm just a stereotypical alien !!
Thank God I'm not in my elements today....
I'd have just vaporized al the humans !!!

I am green is al I hear!!
But baby I'm just a stereotypical alien....
You're a blister in your heydays !!!
Destroy al the fuckin' humans !!!
*
They al move on with their suits and ties...
They al get through with their fuckin' lies...

Interested sluts who arch their back....
Incompetent mutts who just relax....

There's a tension about to explode...
There's no vessel to empty the load....

If I am green they say,
Then maybe I'm a stereotypical alien....
Thank God I'm not in my elements today...
I'd have just vaporized al the humans !!!
*
Look at your plump rack....
Such a hurry to hit the sack....
A pin to torture ya'll everyday....
A sin to let you al have your way....

I don't care anymore !! No !!
I'll have my own vehicle....
Drive down al the stop signs....
Work out my own stable.....

I am green they say !!
Maybe I'm a stereotypical alien !!!
Thank God I'm not in my elements today....
I'd hav just vaporized al the humans !!!

I am green is al I hear!!
But baby I'm just a stereotypical alien...
You're a blister in your heydays !!!
Destroy al the fuckin' humans !!!

You Love It [Unwanted Territory] (2012-06-23, 2012-06-24, 2012-06-26)

Never thought you'd be barraged with arrows...
Gone deep enough to bury,
the roots of an upheaval....
Yet you're glad to've met this girl....

The red river flows nowhere,
and you follow...
The sun spits heat on you...
Yet you love it....

You know it sounds too hollow...
But you're forgotten heart now beats in it....
And you love it....
In love you've been lit....
*
The stars that you talk about....
She's a star that you'd be around now....
And the rain that falls tonight,
Wouldn't drench your drifted plight....

Transparency cannot see through,
The wonderful turmoil that's totally new.....

Books scattered on the floor,
You ignore what you know....
The battle of the century...
Unkempt and unsatisfactory....
Yet you love it....

You know it sounds too hollow to believe....
But you're forgotten heart now beats in it....
And you love it....
You're love knit....
*
The image that you view these days,
Reaches million views in a day....
You're fine with a portable muse...
Finely insane and on the loose....
*
As you look around for a sign or two...
A negation as you expect,
But you're still confused....

And days dry in your flooded eyes....
You realise it never was anythin' wise....

And you know it'll always sound hollow...
But you're forgotten heart now beats in it...
And you love it...
Love is what you've lit.....

Away I Go

[ Not exactly what I wanted ]

Look above,
It's really dark tonight....
The stars explode,
And I feel alight...
Some predestined voyage....
We were born to know....

So away I go....
Away from home,
If that's what it's called....

Nothing goes as planned....
But this one seems an exception....
Say I don't give a damn,
But my words sound pure fiction....
One life murdered,
And the new one set on stone....

So away I go,
I'll just be another unknown....

Too much celebration...
Too much commotion...
My breath's dead a while,
But resilience has been my resolution....

The stick is raised,
And I have to bow down...
The look on my face,
Would salvage their secular town....
I'm not ready at all,
But what good if I was somehow....

Many unanswered questions...
Many uncalled fights...
Oh I leave too many things...
Many too many things behind...
The foot is out the door....
Directed to reach an unwanted shore....

So away I go....
Against my will of course...
I feel a bit sold....

I just need a chorus....
To be stuck in my head for life....
Those few little words,
That'll freeze my past will to live alive....
That'd someday melt it down,
And grab the throat of my dogmatic life....

Get me what I want...
For time enough I've laid quite....

Reality is only true,
When it looks at you
the way you do....
So what if things would then seem cool...
I'll still walk out to do,
What I once wanted to....

But now away I go,
Away from home....
If that's what it's called....
Away I go,
I'm not alone.....

No Replacements

[ Waitin' On The World To Change - John Mayer ]

I once had a teddy bear....
I'd talk with it til dead....
You could say we were goin' steady...
For al that I care....

Well, there came a day when it tore...
And someone angry threw it far out the door....
I couldn't believe it's happenin'...
Thought 'twas a bad dream....

Once I snapped out of my dumb stance....
Went searchin' al around....
But my teddy was gone...
Maybe eaten by the bloodhound....

Things just seem so different....
Something's just have no replacements....
I still think about my love,
As I hit my stride on the messed up pavements....
*
The first day was terrible....
The days after were bad....
I learned to hold myself intact,
But couldn't stop bein' sad....

I reckon we had tea in the afternoons...
Teddy hated but had no choice....
Did whatever possible to please me....
Even helped me shut down al the noise....

And now things just seem so different....
Something's really have no replacements....
I still think about my love,
As I stride on the messed up pavements....
*
It was just a pleasant phase...
Callin' it that would be a disgrace....
I can still see teddy's face....
Oh, he would wanna see me in a happy craze.....

But things just seemed so different....
Something's just have no replacements....
And I still think about my love,
Hittin' my stride on the messed up pavements....

Rests Upon You

[Waitin' On The World To Change - John Mayer]

You gotta meet your reflection,
It would see you and say Wow.
You're pretty good lookin'....
You don't deserve this somehow.....

I'd be content being the mirror,
Connectin' yourself and you....
But you wouldn't take me everywhere,
So I'll be your eyes to show you what's true....

As the world rests upon you.....
*
You still love what you lost....
It'll come back if it was yours, they say...
But don't they realise the matter,
That nothin' in this world is meant to stay....

You keep takin' it in...
Tryin' to buy what they're sellin'....
But things for you are different,
So kindly quit the pretendin'.....

You gotta meet your reflection....
It would see you and say Wow.
You're pretty strong minded,
So get up, the time is now....

I'd love to be the mirror,
Connectin' yourself and you....
But I can be easily broken,
So I'll just stick to being your eyes...
Showin' the path that's new....
While the world rests upon you....
*
Remember the times of goodness....
When life was so misunderstood....
Now that we know Ms. Reality....
We can sort the bad from good....

You're not at al alone....
Two hands, Two legs and several bones....
It's enough to prove wrong what's known,
And see what hasn't yet shone....

And I'd be content being the mirror....
I'll say this a million times not few...
But I can be easily broken,
So I'll just stick to being your eyes...
As the world rests upon you......

Revamped II

[Brighter Than The Sun - Colbie Caillat]
( Was plannin to name it Revamped: The Poetry !!)

Footsteps.
Forward footsteps on the road back...
The white clouds are taken aback,
As I sing about the morass,
that I once lived in with....

Embraced by the breeze warmly,
We shake hands strongly....
It's good to see people,
Headin' back from the steeple...

I wanna go where it points to....

This is good enough...
The past is crazy stuff...
Revamped, i'm on board,
Penning a new folk lore....
*
Headlights.
I gave out a bright fight....
Tainted 'em with tar...
They won't blind me again,
Blemished the monster car....

This seems good enough...
What's past is crazy stuff...
Revamped, I've killed what bored...
Breathin' in vibrant mode....
*
A goodbye to the darkness...
Liberty to what it harnessed...
Vampires that sucked,
And the werewolves I knucked....

Happy Homecoming...
The new look's overwhelmin'...
I don't know if it'll last,
So I'll probably go fast....
I'll flash in the tidy sky....
*
You there.
You look familiar from somewhere....
Have we met,
in our regrets?
Or is this the first time?

Whatever be the plot...
We won't get caught...
For life is all we got...
We're the weirdest of the lot....

This is good enough...
What's past is crazy stuff...
Revamped with a bang...
Forgettin' what I sang....

Thank You !! Goodnight !!!

Man In The Moon

[Same Mistake - James Blunt]

Dark spots on the surface of the moon...
A drunkard spelt out the maria as an early doom...
The rest just call it a face,
of some lad from Earth erased....
He didn't gel well with the crowd...
Moved east when al went south...

And now he's stranded up there...
Angered many and they don't care...
Only God knows since when,
For God put him in his den...
Happy or sad I cannot sense,
But he'll sure be alone...
Though better off without these drones....

And Mama tells her kids at night...
Don't be like that man,
better have some fright...
So they bark at the moon tonight...
Doin' what everyone feels alright...
"Don't be trapped by dogma", Jobs said...
But they ignore, for he is dead....

What will happen of the ones to come?
Worries the man up
as he looks down...
How can there ever be a new wave?
If no new roads were ever paved...

Don't you think he's doin' time cuz
He was wrong....
He's doin time cuz
They were strong...

Doesn't mean they still are...
Many people born with eccentric scars...
The bubble is soon to be burst...
The finest wine to satiate the thirst....

With their torches and weaponry...
when they come runnin' for you....
Call you tmrw's "Man In The Moon"...
Spit on their wrinkled faces...
You're not alone...
Be brave and say,
The Earth is your home...
Not goin' anywhere,
This is your moon.

They may think of doin' somethin'...
But not when you are too many beings....

Hope the day comes drivin' soon,
When there'll be,
More than a million less barks at the moon....

Miss Storm

[ Same Mistake - James Blunt
Alibi - 30STM
And the rains !!!! ]

The rain is al I sing about these days...
This rain reminds me
of you today...
And how everythin',
never went our way....

So... Hey, Miss Storm...
How are you ??
You look different from what I knew....
Can what's expired be renewed ??
Been a long time since I last met you.....
*
Remember when the polka dots fell....
You held my hand,
as we ran to tell....
Then gathered them in your wicker basket....
I slowly slipped one in my back pocket....

Here it is...
Thought you'd love to see it...
I know I suck,
When it comes to givin' reasons....

So, Miss Storm,
How has it been so far??
Leavin' al the ghosts in your past car....
You look different from what I knew...
Can what's expired be renewed ??
It's been an age since I've met you.....
*
How we would sync our forward steps....
The promises we made,
As the secrets slept....

Seems just like yesterday...
If only yesterday wasn't ages away....

Seems like today,
If only today were the same old days....

Hey Miss Storm,
Sorry for interrupting
Your busy life....
That sucked your breathin',
Dropped your ceilin'....
*
Know you're upset,
That I reached so late...
I cannot help,
Was caught up with my own fate....

Just heard they're sendin' the cyclone down....
And thought I'd rather wilt in this lovely town....
I know I'm a drifter but,
I'll be with you now....

Hey, Miss Storm...
Why don't you move your lips ??
I'd read them if you cannot speak....
A sign, an expression, or even a slap....
Animate yourself,
Don't fall off the map....

Ye, we will meet again...
I'm already walkin' in your lane...
I'm not that far,
And I'll never be...
We'll be soon sailin' in your sea....
Have heart, Miss Storm.....

No Other Me

[ Same Mistake - James Blunt ]
[ Love this piece. But still there's confusion.]

Can't really really get over her...
Might take long to be sober...
Trudgin' through the muck,
that lives beneath my feet....
I felt so yucky...
Now I feel so neat...
But the open trail I've left behind...
I'm bein' followed,
I am blind...

No other place I can think of...
No other face good enough...
No other me to turn to...
So I'll do what I cannot do....
*
And as it rains on a summer's night...
I feel amazed that
someone cried....
Not holdin' back emotions in the core...
Not goin' back anymore....

I walk along the thorns cuz i know
No other place i can think of....
No other face so good enough....
No other me I can turn to....
So I'll just do what I cannot do....
*
Had enough of the second chances....
Al I did was stare
As the moment dances....
Had enough of the carcasses...
They made me puke...
Didn't go down well with the masses....
*
The trees alive have been pruned...
A morning strive til the noon....
No sooner than you read this,
I'll be in the circle again....
Though I won't be missed....

So now again I speak sense....
Though synesthesia has slowly commenced....
Disturbin' me once again....
Causin' me to bloody weaken....

But I won't go....
Cuz I don't know....

No other place i can think of...
No other face so good enough...
No other me I can turn to....
So I'll go do whatever I cannot do....
'Til the skies won't turn blue....
'Til someone in gets the clue....
Or 'til the world turns back to you....

Brainwash Sessions

[ The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost ]

They warned me that
I better behave myself....
Go strictly by the book,
Or they'll have me shelved....

A loud NO CAN DO was my answer...
They got me diagnosed with blood cancer....
Dyin' is the easy was out,
They'll keep me alive...
Dye red my doubts....

Brainwash me into playin' with the crowd,
The way they do...
The way they did...
The way I won't....
I'm not a kid.

Told me things would be okay...
If only I bend as they say...
Promised me gold on every way...
I'm not a sell out...
What's a sell out anyway?

I have these sessions,
Every damn hour...
They make me sick,
But they ain't tired to devour....

I stand my ground.
They stand on my mound.
A little more will,
And I'll straddle those clowns....

Raped my life..
Will surely return the favor...
They mock my words,
And say Whatever !

But today just won't be their day....
For today I won't for them lay....
And this'll be the story told everyday....

Soon I'll gather strength enough...
I know i'm outnumbered,
But I am tough....

And they'll be rushin' out,
With al their bluff stuff....
While I'll be alone smilin',
High up above.....

Waitin' [2012-06-13, 2012-06-15]

[On The Fence - Matthew Good Band
My Best Theory - Jimmy Eat World]

Tightenin' the loose screws...
Tyin' up the laces...
Coverin' the old bruise...

Sure it's dark as hell,
And things seem tedious...
And hard to spell...
But I can surely tell...

Waitin' in a box tonight...
Handle with care,
I'm too fragile...
Take me to the destined place...
Don't drop me on the way...
*
Through the hole...
Moonlight peers in...
A solace from my old cousin...
Everythin' will be fine...
Everythin' will go as planned...

Hate the butchers at the main gate...
And how they screw up
With everyone's fate...

For they keep 'em workin',
But not damage free...

But I'll be waitin' in this box tonight...
Handle with care,
I'm too fragile...
Take me to the destined place...
Don't drop me on the way...

And I'll take care of the rest....
*
Its gonna happen soon...
If not what I want,
Then atleast what they croon...

Feel like a child set on a journey to the womb...
Though the mother is gone,
And they've hidden the tomb....

Just be waitin' in a box tonight...
Be kind and handle with care,
Life is too fragile...
So take me to the destined place...
Don't drop me on the way...

I'm sure they'll do as I say.....

Ladders And Snakes

[Strange Days - Matthew Good Band]
( Believe in Deja Vu? )

How long til the hand moves?
And this shabby piece,
Sees the dawning light...

How long do I sit here?
Waitin' on an idea,
from a radio song...

The snakes maybe waitin' for you out there...
But there are enough ladders
to help you "double dare"...
Just have to move to land somewhere...
*
How long do I waste time?
Hopin' in the end it'll soon pay off...

How long do I prove wrong?
The voices that ask me,
When will I begin strong?

The snakes may have brought you down...
It won't be long til they hand you the crown...
Just gotta move to land somewhere sound....
*
How long can you take it?
Is it worth your life?
And al their shit?

How long will you sit here?
Wishin' and starin'
At the dull empty pit....

How long, How long?
It'll have to end,
When you finally begin....

And the snakes might be there,
Crossin' your way...
But they can't keep you
from treadin' your way....
The ladders will always bring you up....
Oh yes, they're enough to give them hiccups.....

How Long?
It's never too long...
Whether they bomb Hong Kong,
Or stretch up Shillong....
The ladders are there,
So keep movin' on...

Its time. Green lime.
The thinkin' stops and the doin' begins....

Well, there are some things you can't leave without.. Some people you can't think of livin' without... This is my life. No matter how fucked up things may seem.. I won't be ashamed of anythin' anymore.. My world.. This world turns too... But i'm gonna make the most of it... Will be back soon...

Change

The voices in my head everyday,
Gimme sleepless nights...
Demolish my way...

Yesterday was different though...
Whether for sure I have to know...

Its true these words have turned my enemies now...
This little world has to end somehow...

Gotta sort out al the chaos in me...
Hope its just a phase for me....
But a phase is the least this could be....

And when all my efforts go in vain,
I'll be back here forever again.....

Sad, Lonely, Stupid

[ The Competition - Kimya Dawson ]

Took the shortcut to my grave...
Thought I'd reach there before you...
But to my suprise,
You were already present...
White daisies that piss me off,
Compliment your smell that turns me on....

You don't notice as usual,
That I am not in...
You begin talkin'
And ask me how i feel...

But hey, pretty girl you really
Don't know what you're talkin'...

Well... Sad, lonely, stupid is,
What I feel al day...
I can't tell you...
Guess you know it...
Yet you wanna hear me say...

Say somethin' different,
For al the voices that you slay....

I get up in the mornin',
And see the daisies on my grave...
I never see them wither
Cuz you replace them everyday...
Then I scare people downtown,
As I speak like the breeze....
But I can't talk to you,
With you i'm never at ease....

And you always suprise me,
By reachin' my grave before me...
And ask me the same things,
You everyday ask me...

Well, Sad, lonely, stupid is,
What I feel al day....
I can't tell you...
Guess you know it...
Yet you wanna hear me say...

Say somethin' different,
For al the voices that you slay...

I missed you the first day...
I'll miss you everyday...
I can't leave with you...
Some promise that I made...
But I wanna be with you,
Though you would never hear me say...

Sad, lonely, stupid is
What I feel al day...
Gotta live with certain things,
Even after you are dead...
Had I known this,
I'd be with you today...
Had I stopped myself,
This wouldn't be my home today....

I'll Hate Myself Even After I Die

[ The Competition - Kimya Dawson ]

Made me a cup of coffee
And poured it on my head
Thought I would scream n burn
But there was nothin that I said

I'm so fuckin' selfish
I'm so full of pretense
Whenever I strangle myself
I never end up dead

I got a few friends
That I don't deserve at al
Well I don't care
If they are there
Cuz I'm busy with my fall

When I was young
I did the one thing
I shouldn't have done
But I was naive
And starved
So I still carry on

I hit myself once with a rusted crowbar
From then i made sure
It would never be in my car

Never do I give up
When doin' wrong
Can't control myself
For I am too strong

Hit me hard with stones
I want myself swollen
But swollen is all i'll be
Can never bury my bones

No matter what I do
I wake up everyday
Drink a glass of water
And go the same old way

Everyone is doin' somethin or the other
And I am sittin false
Feelin' jealous for the first time
Someone kick me in my balls

I am so damn selfish
I cooked myself up
But I couldn't relish

I dream about bein' torn apart
But dreams never come true
All I do is think a while
and have sex with you

Whoever is readin'
What I am writin'
I'll screw your eyes
And you'll
Never see your next of kin

I want to kill myself
I can no more help
I'm a useless fuck
I've given al my luck

For al the ones who care
For al the ones who don't
I don't give a fuck
So let me stay alone

I say that I hate to lie
But lie is all I do
And Life without f
Is a lie really too

Maybe I'd get better
At holdin' my breath
maybe I'd just hang up
Before the main event

I need a perfect day
I have so much to say
But I am a coward inarticulate
So I'll just hate myself today
I'll just hate myself today.....

Attachments

[Devil's Tears - Angus & Julia Stone]

[Now when I read this it seems like Why Does It Always Rain On Me - Travis]

I got no garment on...
I'm freezin' in the rain,
As it disguises my tears...
And mutes my pain...

Wanna turn around things,
But the rain won't stop...
A six year old wound's still bleedin'...
And the rain won't be my mop....

I want no attachments with me...
I don't deserve your shawl...
Sorry, never did justice to you al....
*
Broken glasses al over the road I tread...
Blitzkrieg cuts in my feet...
Hell would've seemed better,
But it won't offer me a seat.....

I want no attachments with me,
Never been good enough for you al....
Sorry, I ain't an angel standin' tall....
*
In a departmental store,
I kissed the devil's slutty wife...
Though her tongue was a rambo knife...
She still is eyein' me for some more....
*
Wanna soon play my final scene,
But the shrewd director isn't keen....
The audience loves my struggle...
So for a while more I'll be seen.....

Quoi qu'il arrive,
I want no attachments with me...
My stomach now aches...
It happens when i'm lying....
Tryin' hard to be a fake....

I want no attachments with me...
I've hidden myself from you.....
Don't deserve your affection,
I really tried to be true.....

Bilge Water

[ Lego House - Ed Sheeran]

I wish I were this person,
Who no one ever knew....
Who lurked outside their houses...
And beautifully drew....

I wish I were this person,
Who never stood a chance...
Did the Cha Cha Cha when in trouble...
Didn't know any other dance....

All worth the sanity is,
Never worth anythin' at all...
Whether you're a damsel in distress...
Or some princess in a ball....
*
I wish I were this person,
Who didn't have a clue,
Of where he is walkin'
Under their voodoo....

But all worth the sanity,
Is never anythin' worth at al...
Whether you're hangin' from the top...
Or at the bottom of the fall....
*
We can't be who we want to...
We're unhappy with who we are...
We got pride, we got lust...
Al these endless sins in us we thrust...

Til we hit the dust....
*
I wish I were this person,
Who never committed that one little crime...
Was careful in his sixteenth...
Never swimmed in slime....

All worth the sanity,
Is never worth anythin' at al...
You pray to be free....
But you were just bought from the mall...

All worth the sanity,
Is never worth anythin' at al...
Whether you're fightin' villains...
Or answerin' a friend's call.....

Tenants

[Indefinitely - Travis]

We're in bed...
I'm holdin' you,
And the clock, seems so dead....

You struggle like a feather...
I kiss your eyes,
As we snuggle together....

The night will soon be over....
Little gasps and moans....
We'll still be closer,
In a world we don't own....
*
The morning breaks into a song...
Wants us to sing along...
But we're lazy gods today....

You open your eyes...
You find me by your side...
This'll happen everyday....

And the night maybe over,
With little gasps and moans...
But we'll still be closer,
In a world we don't own....
*
We won't go bag and baggage...
Cuz we have none...
I'll always hold your hand...
Come a million twists and turns....
*
We're the tenants over here...
Got to pay the rent for living...
We'll never live in fear....

We're back in our bed...
Wonderin' what will be...
Knowin' nothin' at al...
Just waitin' to be free....

The night will soon be over,
With little gasps and moans...
We'll still be closer,
In a world we don't own....
Closer forever...,
Forever we've known....

Untitled 3

These things you fear...
You're devourin' fear...
Your pretense is now bleedin'....

Can't hold it within,
Stitch your skin,
Your thirst for dyphenhydramine....

The world revolves,
You quench your thirst...
The eye lids are fallin'...
One last rise,
The windows closed...
Secrets are now killin'....

But you need some more...
You'll die for more....
dyphenhydramine....

Think of peace...
A peace that excites...
For peace we can't fight...
"Ejaculate, ejaculate",
Chants the masturbation....

Break it once...
Can't break it again...
The hymen spits on you...

The sweat mixes...
You're tired shit
You're a pile of goo...

Vertigo comes over...
She decipates your vision....
You're in a fix...
You're in a fix...
I'm just a hallucination....

Childhood

[ Can think of a better title please? ]

There used to be a happy age,
Called "childhood"...
That grew up in vain....
Now we're knockin' on wood....
Now we're knockin' on wood....

There seems to be a faint smile,
When I hear "childhood"....
It spread too much....
Now it repels at touch....
Now it repels at touch....

Return to me, I order you....
I'll compel you til,
You don't come through.....

What was I thinkin',
When I said I wanna grow....
It wasn't my age,
just the show.....
*
There used to be an innocent phase,
Called "childhood"...
It's a blurred face...
Now i wanna act it again....
I wanna act it again....

So return the key, I order you...
For I can't break the door...
I can't break my home....

What was I thinkin',
When I said I wanna grow !
It wasn't my age,
just the show....
*
There used to be an open ground,
Called "childhood"...
I'd run round and round....
Now I stand in a box....
Now I stand in a box....

So return to me, I order you...
I'll compel you til,
You won't come through.....

What was I thinkin',
When I said I wanna grow !
It wasn't the age,
Just the show....

I order you to give me the key !
For once I wanna see...
What it used to be...

I'm grown now....
Now I wanna grow back....

My Notes

[ This Isn't Everything You Are - Snow Patrol]

[ The drama ends when the breathin' stops....with bated breath, the curtain drops....]

Can't stand the pain anymore....
It has now reduced my height....
And all I do is cry some more,
But the cry doesn't reach the mighty sky.....

Think of the times,
When things were good....
When what I saw,
Was what I understood....

Wanna go back again there...
Though the pain was there...
But it wasn't what it is now....

As I laugh my heart out with close ones,
Hidin' the yellin' implosions....
I realise that I'll miss 'em soon...
As soon as we part our ways to go home....

Killin' my breathin every night....
Can't find the courage to stay still....
The sheet's wrapped 'round my neck,
As I lay on my bed...
Fearin' what will come.....

And the sun rises the next day....
I hear the birds chirp...
Try to bring in the light into my eyes...
But the darkness is there with every blink....

It's bringin' me down now...
It's makin' me bow...

It's seems unavoidable...
The fight's soon gonna be lost, and...
I'll soon be a fable....

Queen B [Co-writer: Vidhi]

[ The Scientist - Coldplay ]

Took a walk in the park nearby....
Sat on the bench a while...
Pondered over my world,
As their selfish world went by....

Too much contemplatin',
Mummifies the moments past....
Too much forgettin',
Makes sure nothin' lasts....

I see an open green wooden box,
On the bench i'm sittin' on....
Soon as i'm out of my drunken state...

A bee lyin' inside it...
Fast asleep in a blanket...
A tear drops on her sunny face...

Then she wakes up...
The puzzle breaks up...
Yawns and rises to my hand...

Sits starin' with me...
At the people that pass us by...
As the world 'round us went by....

Was never lone, never alone...
But never was so at peace with someone...
Was a bit open to company....
But never was I this close nor that far.....

Think I'll never let you go far.....

Comes close and stings me....
Is that a handshake?
Have I messed up the tenses?
Is this some sort of a new start?

Relish the nectar...
Transportation in the pollen sector....
"What time is it?", she busily asks....

Months just flew by....
I felt the wind in my hair....
Months swiftly flew by....
As her wings began to tear......

Is this gonna be the end?
No longer will I ever pretend....

Is this the end for you again?
Why doesn't the Queen ever complain?

I'm not as strong as you are....
I'll never let you go far....

We are now a highly strung guitar....

I still walk the park nearby....
Sit a while on the bench....
With a green wooden box in my hand....

Not contemplatin'...
Not riskin' forgettin'...
My waitin' eyes look up at the yellow that burns....

It should have been my turn....

Come back again I'll still never run....

Doesn't Matter

[ To the most awesomest person i've known....]

Doesn't matter if,
The world stops turnin'...
We never gave a damn....
And We never will....
Doesn't matter if,
The angels are burnin'....
For the devils are waitin' ready...
Dressed to kill....

[ What matters Is
Only You and Me...
We'll fight every evil,
we can or can't see...

What matters really
Is just You and Me....
We've together paid
the "guilty" Forever Fee]
*
Doesn't matter if
We ain't how they are...
Cuz they still hurt
And have deep scars...

Doesn't matter if
The sun won't shine...
We'll make everythin we see,
Look very damn fine...

[ What matters Is
Only You and Me...
We'll fight every evil,
We can or can't see...

What matters really
Is just You and Me....
We've together paid
the "guilty" Forever Fee]
*
Doesn't matter at al...
Al that mattered once...
We were quick yet they called us Dunce...

Doesn't matter how
Our end's gonna be...
We ain't tied to the process,
We ARE FREE...

[What matters now,
Is You and Me...
And our elated camaraderie....

What matters really,
Is You and Me...
Cuz we've together paid,
The "guilty" Forever Fee]

How To Cheer Up A Female Friend [2012-05-27, 2012-05-28, 2012-05-30]

__
[Where's Allen?]
[Good ya'll came. He's there in the backyard. Depressed since noon....]
***
[Hey Allen! Wassup?
Why the long face?]
Oh..Nothing...
[There is somethin' wrong!]
Uh..Nothin' really.
*Glares* TELL US !!

Uh...okay! Just that She's sad. And....I Wish i could cheer her up !

[She's sad? She's sad !! She's sad, she's sad, she's sad, she's saaaaaaaaaaaddddd !!!!]

[Hey Chris! The fella's sad cuz SHE is sad!! Hahahaha]

[ Enough with the funny! Maybe we can help]

[Hmmm..let me think...
Maybe you shud write a letter,
To suck in the "fretter"...
That'd make her feel better....
And a box of chocolates wud just be Wow!]

Yeah, read that on wikiHOW !!

I need somethin' real...
Somethin' as true as I feel....
But I just can't think of anythin' now....

By the way,
I tried to write a letter....
But my dog found the better....
So i'm in no mood to write cheesy again !!

[Over here it says...
"Girls love to hit the dance floor"]
The kind of mood she's in....
She'd rather hit me on the floor....

[Sayin' PIKACHU makes a girl chuckle]
Right! If I say it once more i'll get her knuckles...

[This one suggests...
Stand naked outside her window]
Is that supposed to be funny ?? Ha. Ha. Ha.

[ Just get her somethin' special then !!!]
But there's nothin' special for a girl so welllllllllllllllllllll !!

*Sigh*
Isn't there somethin' I can do?
Rather than just STFU......
Just sprinkle some grains of happiness,
Clean her out of the turmoiled mess....

[ Why don't you just go meet her ?!
Take some flowers to greet her...
That would really cheer her up and make her day]

O yeah ?!
But she wouldn't take the call....
She's like a closed up stall...
No reply to the texts I sent...
A bunch of flowers would just be a sneeze vent....

Hope she's not so for long....

*Message beep*
*Can we meet?
Please say "No"....
You don't have to agree with me anymore....*

She MESSAGED !! She MESSAGEDDDDD !!!!

*YES. Comin' by six*

So STOP you al fanatics!!
Goin' to drive her crazy at 6....
She's okay and just needs to walk....

A "NO THANK YOU" for your googled suggestions...
Wouldn't have even benefited a lion's skin...
Now forgive me, for I have to leave....

[She's okay? Just like that... A walk?]
Uh huh...
[Okay..see ya!]
See ya on the stars.....!!

[ Hey Frank my man... Could you please google how to uncheer a cheered up boy cuz of a cheered up girl? ]
[I'm on it....]
...............THE END..............

What's To Become....?

[Stuck In Sadville. Thank you Bryan Adams for comin out of nowhere to complete this mediocre shit]

We walked for miles...
Even crossed the Nile...
But never turned our heads,
To see what's behind....
Yeah, we were scared...

We left our homes,
With suitcases full of hope....
Lost them somewhere on our way...
We lost what we had to say...

What are we doin?
Where are we goin?
This isn't the end
That's al I can assure....

Got to keep movin'...
Despite the whoopin'....
Til we've got feet,
And have the heart to go....
*
Hardly anyone we've met,
Wasn't dipped deep in sticky regret....
But we are different...
We can't hav the same fate....

The middle finger's shown to us...
As usual pointin' to the sky....
Bend the bone backwards this time,
Use it as our guide....

What are we doin'?
Where are we goin'?
What's to become
of us Think-alikes?

Got to keep movin'...
Despite the whoopin'...
This isn't the end...
That's al I can assure...

Pace ourselves a bit
Pull ourselves out of this shit....
'Cause we've got feet,
And have the heart to go....

What's to become of what we couldn't become?
Do we still have time to chew the gum....?
What's to become
of us Think-alikes.....?

Undefined

[ Seekir - Zola Jesus ]

You'll never know,
What I hide....
I'll never tell,
It isn't there inside...

Perfect size...
Perfect lies......

A perfect chance,
To seize the lance...
To slash the wrist,
Before you bump the fist...

There's only you...
You're nothin' inside...
In the queue,
To raise the tide....

Stuck with yourself.
No one to help....

Stuck in the grey area....
Leash around your neck....
You're pulled firmly back,
To the old hysteria....

You still wanna know...
The thing I hide...
A cotton candy goes waste on a dandy ride....

Knowin' (2012-05-27, 2012-05-28)

[ Seekir - Zola Jesus
No Matter What - Papa Roach
Born Free - Kid Rock]
[ Writin' from Sadville...!!!! Knowin' it didn't turn out what I wanted it to be...]

Hey. Just stopped by to say Hey...
Day. Isn't it beautiful today?
So how and what you doin' these times?
Busy puttin' up with all those mimes?

Okay...I don't know what i'm sayin',
Maybe cuz I don't know what to say....

Anyways,
'Twas nice knowin' you....
Now just have to say goodbye,
Knowin' you'll never be here like today...
Knowin' In the rear view you'll soon fade away....
Excuse me.....,
Think I got somethin' in my eye.....
*
Speak. Too much silence will grow you weak....
You speak. As words get stuck on your lips.. Soft lips....

And then You ask if we were meant to be,
Why did it al go this way?
I say if we are meant to be...
We'll meet again some other day....

Anyways,
'Twas nice knowin' you...
Now just have to say goodbye,
Knowin' tomorrow might never be like today...
Knowin' In the rear view you'll soon fade away....
Excuse me.....,
Think I got somethin' in my eye.....
*
I'll miss al the games that we played...
And I'll miss al the arguments we made...
A flyin' kiss to the nights that you stayed
And the dues we paid....

All I'll hate is,
Knowin' we can't unknow what we've known....
*
So I guess, I guess I gotta make a move....
Here. I Have somethin' I thought you'd like...
Open it when i'm gone in the smokin' groove....

Well, There's so much I wanna say....
That I won't 'em say today...
So I'll hope to find you again in my way......

Anyways,
'Twas nice knowin' you....
Now just have to say goodbye,
Knowin' its a hard word to say...
Knowin' In the rear view you'll soon fade away....
Excuse me.....,
Think I got somethin' in my eye.....

Hopes and Stars [2012-05-24, 2012-05-26]

[Papa Roach - No Matter What]
(Hope i've got the words right...)

As the Sun sinks in the ocean...
As the eerie Night slips in to cover the light....
The meadows turn discoloured and dim...
The birds are on a homeward bound flight....

But I'll be there waitin' in the dark....
Gazin' wearily at the sky....
Joinin' the twinklin' specks....
Hopin' they'd evince your silhouette...

The last moment we shared....
The last time we cared...
Time was al we had,
But didn't make much of it, did we?
Cuz we were busy together livin' separate lives....

And How we slipped away,
Into distinct clefts....
Your's somewhere up high, mine down below...
But I came out for you...
As I realised in my fall,
How I'd once fallen for you...
'Twas too late till then....

So now I'm here with my hopes al high...
Knowin' you feel the same....
So I'll continue my wait,
For the moment when you finally come down....

Cuz I know you'll be back.....
My fiery cowgirl....
Ridin' on a star......
As you "hee haw" in the atmosphere....
Your cat eyes eager to meet mine....
Outshinin' the earthly lights....
Your smile beamin' in galaxies far n wide....
When you snare me in your bliss....
And we'll share a long wet kiss....
......As this curious world wonders and watches.....

Once Called "Life"

[The White Stripes - We're Going To Be Friends]

There's a road I reckon, to my left...
Full of trials and very deep clefts....
The way out is here on my right....
But to stay on is the biggest fight....

This is somethin' I once called "Life"....
And It's a bitch in each and every size....
*
Got some dirt in your eye tonight...
Clean it out or you won't feel alright...
But Rubbin' your eyes just makes you cry....

This is somethin' I once called "Life"....
And It's a bitch in every available size....
*
I am not my favorite person...
Nary a bit...
I am down. I am worsenin'
But I never give up....
Difficulty: Easy is for suckers....
Baby, We were born to get it hard !!!
*
Nightmarish days. Horrendous fights...
Folks question. You stay quiet...
You're in love. But still you lie...
Struggle much to reach up high...
Moments stirred with laugh and cry....

This is somethin' I once called "Life"....
There's more to it...
BUT It's a bitch in every available size !!
'Til you die...

Untitled. Alone. Pissed.

Hey beautiful, with lips held strong...
You so faintly seal,
A time traveled wrong....

As a fallin' angel,
Lands on a dying star....
Permeates and smiles,
In the supernova....
The secret ingredient,
lost in the broth....
Your blood now drips,
from the woollen cloth....

Screamin' voices, in a humungous vault...
Access to 'em, denied to al....
Give me the key,
The combination....
Take me in,
I'll allay the commotion.....
*
You trust no one,
under the moon and sun....
As you run....
Besotted with non-existence,
Confined in this ditched place....

Screamin' voices, in a humungous vault...
Access to 'em, denied to al....
Give me the key,
The combination....
Take me in,
I'll allay the commotion.....

The pain will subside...
The pain will subside...
There's no need to hide....
I'm on your side.....
You're not alone.